yea..this guy..know him through some of his drama,but seriously know him after his participation in the runningman show...his name is---park shin yang

He just give me a kind of deep impression,charming..just attracted by him after 20 minutes of the show

Another 'uncle' which people used to call them which I'm attracted in..I guess this kind of man would only take my attention instead of those guys in school~I mean some of them...smoking around...didn't get themselves prepared for the exam...decided to study double degree and not working...acting like a boss and unknowingly that they are using up their parent's money but not on their own effort...yea...kind of reject these people out of my life~~

Back to this guy, he is just simply charming okay??！！！hahahaha~~

Besides yoo jae suk,he's the second~~

His motto: 总是竭力做到最好

Yea...kind of inspired by him~~hahaXD

p/s: yoo jae suk is still the best!!!!

18.01.2013

新的一年了，完全没有热情的感觉
这两个星期都在考试
我想我应该很压力吧
今天考完最后一科了
law paper
刚考完FA后的另一天早上
大概是担心law吧
晚上睡不好，
早上630am就自然醒
想睡却没有睡意了
今天也是早上640am就醒了
起来洗刷，吃早餐
继续读、继续背
考前的两个小时，胃不舒服
很想吐~不知是太紧张还是午餐的关系
好吧~时间很快的到了5pm
进考场，把背过的东西都写上
但是，回答得有点乱七八糟
唉
7pm，交卷，那种感觉真的像解放
想哭的感觉
9pm才开始从semenyih回cheras
结果载一个朋友回家弄到10pm才可以吃晚餐
胃老早就不舒服了~唉
结果florance的妈妈叫他回家帮弟弟切蛋糕
晚餐也带回他家吃
切蛋糕的时候
眼前的画面，真的好幸福
他一回到家，看到婆婆就给他一个紧紧地拥抱
弟弟生日，她妈妈抱着他的弟弟
还有他爸爸~~
那种眼神、感觉、互动~~
真的能深深地感受到家的感觉
1130pm 她才载我回家
看到客厅有灯，按门铃~门铃坏了
打电话叫二姐下来开门给我
那种冷漠。。进屋里，爸爸在看戏
跟他说门铃坏了那么久怎么还没修
他说：哦，坏了
门铃从去年就坏了，可是已经是新的一年了~
大姐早就睡觉了~
进到这屋里后，冷冷清清的
没有一丝的沟通
爸爸从来都不知道他的女儿在干吗
从来不知道，从来不了解
我知道我比起很多人幸福太多太多了
但是，今晚，关上电脑后
躺在床上，想起刚刚的所有画面
心里憋着的一种心情，
泪把它释放出来
不停地流~
我想大概是考试压力影响心理和精神了吧
不知道可不可以撑下去
希望我可以
现在暂时把转校的念头打消了
我现在
无法
放下

今天我要读书！！！
刚刚洗了厕所~怀念宿舍的厕所~
因为比较小，也比较容易洗
家里的~~~地很难擦
手不知是不是太用力，现在硬邦邦了
我要读书！！！
加油！无论如何，都要笑着面对！

14/10--leisure mall--the fierce wife

好的~原本懒惰去leisure mall见隋唐的，
但是，还是去了
有游戏环节的时候，
我心里暗想-我一定要上台去
不知道那天是什么回事，有一定要的想法
哈哈~可能是缘份吧~
上台，对着不熟悉的男人说着挽留的台词
超怪~！
之后，入围了
能够和明星们近距离接触，
看着每次在荧幕出现的人，就这样活生生的站在你面前
感觉很奇妙
哈哈
好的，说了台词，温升豪说接受
娃哈哈哈
还是第一次被明星男人轻抱
就这样--赢得了两张免费的戏票
我要跟谁看？
第一个人出现的。。。是你
打给你，你说你没回来吉隆坡
就算你上个星期回来，你也没有要找我的想法
我和你真的彻底结束？
哈哈~我还期望什么？
至少你不再是冷淡的急于挂掉
第二个人--在忙~
最后，放弃~
唉~
该努力读书，努力生活！三年后，会出现的！

I've lost myself in these two months,
I forgot what is my target and keep doing things that is wasting my time
I've lost two months time
What am I doing?
I've been limiting the hours of my time in front of the computer in the past six months
but now i choose to sit in front of the computer for the whole day
I regret that I have chosen the wrong thing,I've made wrong decision
I'm regretting on taking the English course,but what can I do?
Money was paid for the whole course
All I had to do is continue in it.

Next,I joined Amway
Not accepted by parents,no,i should say not accepted by mum
it will be a tough way for me
but all I hope is that i can persist till the end.
Thanks mying for being my driver,for fetching me without mumbling
for giving support with sincere
and sorry for not showing the expression the thought to you.
I'm trying my best.
BE happy,Think positively.
But,if there is an Angel,there will be a Demon.
It depends on how you are going to balance it.
.^^.

Feelings

yeah,now working at power english centre
she gets angry again.]
i look at the students,waiting to call their parents
i wanted to cry,i don't know why
but the feelings just appeared
haih,but she really said nothing wrong
i saw one of the essays,it was poor
out of vocabulary
my english is sucks too
and my self-determination is weak
i have no stamina to complete or persist to do something
what a failure
i always get angry on myself..
yeah,lack of confidence
i admit it
it has been one year since we broke up
memories still filled up my mind
even though i'm just walking in a night market
not that i haven't let her go
it just memories that treasure in my deep heart
somehow,i wish to leave here and let my mind take a rest
urge is never fulfill
u will be craving more
this is what a man is except for gods of course.

Someone spoilt my mood and that was my mother

we talked about going to the curve yesterday night

and she agreed that we go

but today,what she did was yell!

:isn't sister wanted to go to the curve?

everyone in this house is waiting for your command

but still u havent prepared anything and gave sister a scold?!

u should have informed sister that you aren't going

everyone is waiting for you

and you just gave a scold to sister and father

how could you treat your husband in such a way!

how can you scolded him when he did nothing wrong?!

how can you scolded him when he didn't know what is going on?

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!

somehow i just dreamt of left this house without leaving any message

i think before to live in my friend's house or go to her house to stay for a moment

but how could i do that to hurt my family

in this life u can't just live by your own

you have to think of many things

all kinds of relationship,money,all kinds of stuff

what a FFking feelings i had!